Changes

My wife is due in a little more than a month with our second child. I’d be lying if I didn’t say I was nervous about all the changes our new son will bring into our lives. This transition from a family of three to a family of four has thrown me for a loop – How will we travel? Will they both sleep through the night? Will there be enough room in our house? Will there be enough food? Will our lives look anything like they do now?

The last question is the one that’s been weighing on me the most because I know the answer.

No, our lives will never look the same as they do now.

This realization can provide either a moment of dread, fear, and confusion or a sense of anticipation, joy, and hope. I’m leaning toward the latter. I know things will be different but I have to believe they will be different in an amazingly wonderful way. Change is not a negative thing. In this case, change is related to one of the most powerful life experiences for my family.

Within our spiritual walks, we are constantly assaulted by external factors – good and bad. These outside stimuli inevitably lead to changes in our lives that force us to react, adapt, and move forward. From a faith perspective, it is comforting to be assured that our spiritual journey is not a static one. We continue to grow in our faith, knowledge, and understanding of God’s grace and love. We are not the same now as we were last week, last month, last year, or even ten years ago. However, God is constant and unchanging while we continue to see bits and pieces of the whole picture during this growth of faith that comes through the Holy Spirit.

We cannot predict how our faith will be affected by tragedy, grief, loss, and confusion. However, we do know that our God will be a constant presence and support. I’m not sure how my faith will be affected by the birth of my son, a change in my family, new questions about parenting, and what I am called to be in this community; but I do trust that God who is faithful and just will work all my self-doubts, questions, and anxiety for good.